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Just wanted to take a minute to say hello and that I'm happy to have found this site. Although I was never officically diagnosed with BPD, I had all of the symptoms for years just never seeked help or knew where to go. I always thought that's just the way I am. Close friends that I've shared information on BPD with, say that it definitely sounds like me. I've been fortunate to have found people that accept me, as I am and that's what I seek ultimately in a personal relationship. It's usually in my intimate relationships when all the symptoms come out and so far, I haven't found someone able to deal with it. It's my last failed relationship that finally got me in therapy and truly seeking recovery. Before I could always blame my behavior on others, because they did something to upset me is why they got what they got. But this time, I realized, it was all me listening to crazy things in my head and not taking responsiblity to control my emotions. I decided that I couldn't live that way any longer and needed to get help. I started going to therapy, diagnosed with IED and mild depression. I was told that a lot of therapist don't like diagnosing BPD. At any rate, I feel that I'm in a much better place now and on the road to recovery. Relying on my faith and the practical assistance of a couple of 12 step programs I'm in and therapy, I'm learning to better deal with my emotions, my anger and people in general. It's not about me, whatever issues they are dealing with is their own and I'm not to take it personally. When things happen and I start to get upset, I'm able to take a step back, realize that I have some things going on in me that may cause me not to see things so clearly at times and adjust my behavior accordingly. Looking forward to learning and sharing.

Glad to hear that the therapy and 12 step groups are helping. Sounds like you've made some real progress. This is a great place for working on recovery - everyone's really committed and focused.

Looking forwards to getting to know you,

Lirael