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Hello fellow BPD'ers. Obviously I am new to this website but I am a long time veteran to the struggle to cope and fruitless search for an answer. I guess I am just so low at this point I am taking yet another shot in the dark for any help, comfort, or at least virtual understanding no-judging companionship that I can get. I am tired, so tired. Life should not be a moment to moment struggle and the constant battle raging in my head is getting to be too much. It feels strangely familiar here...

Hi,

You've come to the right place. I've been coming here for a long time, and I've gotten so much help....so I hope you will benefit as much. Welcome.

To TiredHopeful -

You echo what I am feeling right this minute. Today has been a hard day for me because between the bouts of tears and feelings of hopelessness, I would hear this tiny stubborn voice inside of me whispering "Don't you dare give up."

And so, even though I still feel as though I am swimming in chaos and that nothing is going to go right in my Life, that tiny voice would not stop. Hope won a few battles today. Tiny to others, immense to me.

I cleaned the kitchen although I did not want to do it. I changed the bedding although I did not want to do that either. I made an appointment to have my hair cut and styled tomorrow because I forced myself to do it, knowing it would make me feel better, and lastly, I finally decided to join this site - a shot in the dark.

Sevae