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Hey folks, dont know if i've got BPD only found out about it last night while surfing the internet and it describes most of my life (im 21). I have the symptoms such as instability of mood, black and white thinking, bad relationships, anxiety, depression, loss of self and thinking differently about people when im let down (i fear rejection). For most of my life i've been a loner - not that i didnt have any friends but because i felt lonelier with people than i did on my own. I turned away from the outer world and focused in on the inner world to find my true self. Over the past year i've been recovering, i've forced myself to go out and socialize but it's hard because i dont know my old friends like i use to. I feel like a stranger to them. Im a quiet guy and i find it hard to speak in conversations because i never know what to say and i feel i have become de-personalised in a way. thanks for reading

hi,

welcome! what kinds of helpful/healthy things did you do in search of your true self? if you don't mind sharing. i've been trying to do this, but without luck.

thanks,

ss