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Hey everyone, Ive never really been compelled to join a forum before, but here am I am. I've not been formally diagnosed with BPD, but every time I search for some help or describe a feeling I have, google always gives me BPD as the answer, and after reading several different sources for symptoms an such, it seems pretty clear that I meet all the criteria. I've been this way for a long while, (I'm 26, started feeling low/abnormal at around 13) and I could never find something that could help me with my specific problems until I stumbled upon this site, and I'm really looking forward to putting the tool set into practice, it will be nice to be on the "same wave length" as the people I interact with, instead of wondering if I'm fitting in or being obsessed with the way they percieve me, or how long will it take for them to hurt me in some way or another. Right now I'm kind of at the shocked stage, still trying to grasp the fact that a lot of negative feelings I have blamed on other things were kind of just invented or hyperboled in my head. Anyhow, I'm glad to be here and hello again!

Hello and Welcome to BPDR!! We are glad to have you here!

Yes, the tools here can help. And I can totally relate to that shocked feeling about my behaviors or feelings that I thought had more to do with external sources than me. But....once I was able to identify that internal source, I was then able to identify ways to combat it. Goal-setting is a great tool for me!

I also like that fact that around here, I don't have to worry so much about fitting in or how I'm perceived by others. I was such a chameleon in RL for so long because I didn't really know who I was so I just became who I thought people wanted me to be. Now.....I know myself and I have more confidence in being me, here and in RL. I hope that happens for you too! Learning to place solid, effective boundaries has also helped me with that fear of being hurt/rejected. I now know it's up to me and there is a certain sense of self-esteem that came along with learning boundaries and separation of stuff (one of those tools on the left).

Welcome again! I look forward to your future posts!

Thanks for the warm welcome, how you describe yourself now, self-esteem, knowing who you are and the like, that's exactly how I want to be, I'm happy for you and it's to know that it's possible to feel that way. I didn't even know what BPD was until a few weeks ago, but the fact that it pretty much nailed who I was is bittersweet in a way, I think knowing what I have is a big step in finding ways to become the happy comfortable person I want to be. Have a great weekend!

I can't quite figure out how to edit but there's supposed to be the word "good" in there...sorry about the grammar loose end.