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Just found this site, I would like say it would have been nice to find this years, months, weeks, days ago or I would not be needing it as much as I do now, but then again I was not ready for it, nor would I have accepted that anything was "wrong" with me.

Just recently opened "The Angry Heart" and seeking a DBT treatment center.

Was mis-diagnosed 6+ months ago with ADHD and Bi-Polar, have the ADHD, no question, but the mis-diagnosis for the Bi-polar caused me months of walking coma, to the point I could not see straight, just seemed to intensify the BPD Mania, which in the long run, I may see as a godsend.

Painful having this awareness, now becoming fully aware of the poison I have inflicted on my life, family and marriage (hanging on by a thin thread), fighting the BPD part that wants to run away and not hurt, but I will never give up, I can't, not an option.

Hardest part of this is with all ths new information streaming at me, and being aware enough to receive it, not sure whenever I come to a conclusion, don't know whether it's the BPD mind or the aware mind. Like walking in a minefield blindfolded.

Only hope it's not too late. I am starting this journey for myself, I pray the ones I love will join me.

Breathe. Breathe, breathe, breathe...

Welcome. I'm glad you're with us.

You may come in with some wasted years, scarred relationships and a thousand questions, but you are no longer alone! Recovery can seem like a very big deal (and it is), but you have already accomplished the biggest part. You can now see that there is a problem, and you are willing to learn and to grow. That's awesome stuff, and I'm glad you found us.

Welcome TriDad. As Minx said, you're no longer alone.

You are totally not alone. One of the most terrifying moments of my life was realizing the severity of what I was going through, that something was actually *wrong*, that I wasn't ever going to just wake up and be normal, but that it would take a lot of work, maybe for my entire life. But accepting that you are ready and willing to do that work IS a huge step.

Welcome, you're already on your way to recovery.