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Hi everyone, I am CrystalL I was diagnosed with BPD about 7 years ago. I did not seek treatment or recognize that I had a mental illness until now. I'm 29 years old and I just couldn't figure out why drama and strife kept happening over and over again. I realized it was my reactions and my patterns that were creating the unstable patterns and oh boy is the can of worms open now. I've learned more in the last 3 months about myself than ever before. I'm in a painful place having to look at myself and understand that I am sick. At least now I know that I can get better, I just thought I was a bad person all this time. It's a blessing to find a "community" of people who are able to relate and understand what I'm going through in ways my friends or family can't. I'm looking for a mental health practitioner here in Ireland, and because I have no health coverage as of yet, I have not yet begun my treatment. But I have in my own way very much begun.

Thanks All
C

Hi Crystal, and welcome-

You have a great attitude toward getting better -- you believe it can be done, and you're getting started on your own even without formal treatment. Good start! Yes, we do have to sometimes face some pretty unpleasant personal assessments, and that's painful, but it's the path toward happier and healthier living. Be sure to check out our "Tools" in the box on the left for some ideas on improving our thinking and behavior, and if you have any questions or comments, ask away.

welcome crystal