
I have trichotillomania too.
I don't know about you, but I think change can be very scary, even positive change. When I first got help for my MH issues and was offered a place in group therapy, the thought of becoming a different person frightened me - even though I knew I couldn't go on as I was. I spoke to others with MH issues about it and they all said they could relate.
That was five years ago now and I have changed a lot, but gradually. I am still the same person I was back then - just wiser and healthier.
Hope that helps.

Looking forward to getting to know you.