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Hey everyone, my name is Richard and I was diagnosed with BPD in the summer of 2001. I had just ended a relationship (married at the time), we weren't right for each other. When I left I felt like I was "on top of the world". I had so much confidence in myself (more than I had ever had) and I was on a, what I thought at the time, was a natural high. Also during this time I had went to church with a friend and asked God to help me and save me. A few days later I felt an overwhelming feeling of joy. Well, to make a long story short, I became really spiritual, but really confused and distorted. Eventually within a few months I was admitted to a hospital because I felt I was on a Spiritual mission so to speak. They said I was in a manic episode. I got out of there in a few weeks and continued therapy at my local mental health facility. Of course they diagnosed me bipolar, but they also diagnosed me BPD. They started me in a class for it but half way through the city stopped funding for it and I couldn't go anymore. It was a very confusing time in my life. Since then I tried to just focus on myself, and it worked for a while but I was going about it the wrong way. Currently I am engaged with two beautiful daughters. I love my family more than anything (I love myself too, sometimes) and I want to be the best man I can for them. There has been way more good times than bad in my relationship with my fiancee, but I have a lot of trouble sometimes with the symptoms of BPD like feeling worthless, not good enough for my family, depression, self hurting, taking things the wrong way, saying harsh things I don't mean, ect. I want to take any steps I need to to better myself so I can be the man I need to be for myself and my family. I am so glad to see that there are communities like this available. Thank you for offering this, I hope to get myself on the road to recovery and also help others in the same way along the journey.

Hi, and welcome to BPDR! I'm glad you found us.

It sounds like you're a lot more stable now than you were a few years ago -- good job! Check out our "Tools" in the box on the left for some of the techniques we like to use in our search for happy, healthy living.

I look forward to "seeing" you around the board.

Welcome, welcome!

You sound like you have a healthy attitude towards achieving healthy, happy living! I'm glad to 'meet' you and I really do hope this site will be useful to you in your journey-- it's been absolutely instrumental in mine.

Well, welcome and just dive in and post when and where you find appropriate! If you have any questions, just ask and we will be happy to assist.

Welcome!