Thanks Harmonim and Lirael,
I agree, a relapse, especially because I know it for what it is and I'm pretty honest with myself, is easier to navigate out of than my journey when I was first diagnosed. I know myself, and I know my tricks.
I think I feel disappointed because of my inability to manage the situation, but it wasn't really a great situation to begin with. I'll probably talk more about it later, once I get more comfortable.
Thank you both for the welcome, I appreciate it!