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Out of control ... messed up and notihing but chaos. Last week of TA training and I still don't have a goddamn clue. My first class starts this Monday.

My friend Darren is still crashing here... and I am over my stress threshold. How do I deal with that? Grad school, which hasn't even started yet, is beyond intense. The TA training, which I'm supposed to teach a stinking class, is out of control. Three days into the training, and I am so overwhelmed and confused that I am really questioning whether I should have attempted this in the first place.

What do you do when your threshold of stress is over inflated?

I am seriously not sure if can deal with this. I am beyond terrified. And, external factors, like my moocher friend crashing at my place, is adding so much more stress to a situation that is already out of control. What am I supposed to do? How do lower the stress factor?

I am seriously afraid that I cannot do this - the teacher thing, and the grad school thing, and the life thing on top of that.

I have been crying off and on for the lst three days. That is not acceptable. How do I take care of myself without feeling guilty? Without feeling like a failure, because I can't seem to manage it all right now?

Dysfunctional thoughts - I'm sure - And yet, emotionally intense at the same time. I feel like I'm floundering.

Help.

hey
Maybe you might want to consider being honest with your friend? You don't have to say much or reveal everything, you can just tell him something like you're going through a really tough time, and the doctor has adviced that you need some space to sort out your stuff. After all friendship is about honesty?Just a suggestion
Yeah feeling overwhelmed is quite normal You mentioned that the TA thing is out of control. Perhaps you might want to examine specifically what are your expectations of yourself, and whether they are reasonable
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Thanks meremortal! I wrote that on a night I was feeling extremely chaotic (if you can't tell) lol. I am adapting. Thank you for the support.

hehe Chaotic times, don't we all go through that? *whining* I so get what you mean, especially when we feel overwhelmed, chaotic and nothing seems clear, everything's just fuzzy and blur and strong and intense!

we're 'special' people! *whining again* LOL